Skrishelic (Agnew)

So I have to quickly write something that amazes me. I may come back to this in length later, but for now I just wanted to touch on it. In my journal I am looking at and writing about Matthew 10, because there is some sweet stuff there, some amazing and important things, and I love it. I also am hoping to write on Ecclesiastes on here, but I am having some difficulty right now. I am Xangaing through the 12 steps, which is going well, so ultimately I hope to be writing daily because that is always good for me. Anyways, here is something I love:

"Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? And not one of them will fall to the ground apart from your Father....Fear not, therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows." Matthew 10: 31, 33

First time I read this I thought that many sparrows would still only cost a few cents, a dollar or two at most, and that thought amused me. But the heart of this these verses is amazing, especially for someone like me who wonders sometimes if God truly cares about the little things in my life. In the midst of great tragedies and wars and all the great evils of this world, I can't comprehend that God would deign to hear my tiny prayers about the crap in my life. As Kevin Devine said in song "I realize that my (crap)'s about as small as it could be, but that just makes me feel worse for even feeling that bad in the first place." So I know my problems may be small in the grand scheme of things. But Jesus tells us that no sparrow falls from the sky without God's hand in it. And what is a sparrow? It is nothing, they are sold two for a penny, which, adjusted for inflation, would basically be them paying us to take sparrows. They are meaningless. And yet their lives are held in the hands of the Lord. And here are we, here am I, a human made in God's own image. Humans, elevated over all creation. If God cares enough to watch the sparrows, then how much more will He watch over us and love us?! I know God loves me. And I will always say that on a macro scale that is evident. But on a micro scale it is not always evident, not always palpable. But there it is, Christ assures us that it is there, that love, in every detail of our lives. That the life of a lowly sparrow is held in God's hands, and so my life too will of course be there. God is a God who knows, who pas attention, and who cares. Because He loves us so much and He only wants us to be happy. And for us to be happy means that we see and know God and love and appreciate and glorify Him for it. That is when we are most satisfied, when He is most glorified. It doesn't mean that I am going to get the thing I want, because it is entirely possible that by not getting said thing I will need to rely on God, be satisfied by Him alone, and come to grow in my love and appreciation for Him. That is awesome. God withholds no good things from those who love Him. And I know I love Him, so I know that He is not withholding anything that is good for me. Heck, he cares about the sparrows, and I am worth at least six or seven sparrows, so then I know that God cares about me. In the big stuff, in the little stuff, in every aspect of my life. How amazing is our God? A God of infinite majesty and power and might who loves me, a lowly creature. It is truly amazing, I cannot even explain it with words. I feel there is no word capable of expressing how truly mystified I am. It is Skrishelic (A random word I am making up because a proper word does not exist). Thank you God!